three months of turmoil has passed. I hope this will end the way i hoped it to end.

I want to say goodbye to frustrations, late nights, sleepless nights,  studying nights, cold nights, lonely nights.

Will it just be the same as the past  terms?

Will there be a little merry Christmas for me? Let’s hope so.

wt wud u do?

if the person u truly care about, is taken for granted by someone?

can u: muster up ur strength to say to them: hey, ur hurting my life?

will u: stand up for wt u believed in, make them believe that she is worth more than she seems..

or shud u: stand aside, take all the pain inside, because u can’t do much. ur only just a friend.

three months of toiling is finally over! at last, i can rest my mind and spirit.

the schoolwork’s arent easy, im so lucky to finish it all.

hmm.. plans for the week? movies, visit old "friends", and FUN!

RPC ends this july18. final battle of RoseCroix..

I’ve read it in our guild’s discussion boards.. hay..

The One That Got Away
By Mark J. Macapagal (The Manila Times, 24 June 2003)

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with… and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person, with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person; there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequential, become deal breakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect.

They might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It will work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, and you finally understand who you are and what you want.

And you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived.

And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you’re single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids. It doesn’t matter. All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away is the first person you think about.

You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You’ll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That’s what the one that got away is, the biggest "What if?" you’ll have in your life.

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and this is just another test of your commitment. One which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it.  Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing.  You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple…find him, find her.  Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you’ll always wonder what if you got that one.

Ask him out to coffee; ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference.

If the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow and you know. I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you’re the one that ALMOST got away."

life’s nver been easy, or so it seems.. we just have to cope up with different changes that we’ll encounter along our paths. be strong and never surrender..

if u love and get hurt, love more.. if u love more and get hurt more, just love even more. if u love even more and get hurt even more. love some more till it hurts no more.. –shakepeare

there’s so much to life than love..

it’s been quite a while since i really updated my blog! hvent got enough time to pour my thoughts in here, i have so many things in mind these past months.. let me start of:

school: midterm hell week is finished at last, got an adequate passable grade for humanities. i think i’m starting to feel i’m failing in circuits and electronics.

life: nothin of importance, just me, myself and everyone else.

just seen my hs good friends yesterday, its been a while too since i last talked to them! hours isnt enough to bond with them. ahh, those hs times. marie, diana, dianne, lhes and anshe.thanks for time and stories!

so much for our fourth term! vacation week is inching nearer, at last.. one week head start.

Bakit pa kailangan magbihis
Sayang din naman ang porma
Lagi na namang may sisingit
Sa twing’ tayo’y magkasama
Bakit pa kailangan ng rosas
Kung marami namang
Mag-aalay sa’yo
Pupuno na lang ng paawit
Maghihintay ng pagkakataon
Hahayaan na lang silang

Chorus:
Magkandarapa na manligaw sa’yo
Idadaan na lang kita
Sa awitin kong ito
Sabay ang tugtog ng…. gitara
Idadaan na lang…. sa gitara

Mapapagod lang sa kakatingin
Kung marami namang nakaharang
Aawit na lang at magpaparinig
Ang lahat ng aking nadarama
Pagbibigyan na lang silang
(Repeat Chorus)

Pagbibigyan na lang silang
Magkandarapa na manligaw sa’yo

[wla lang.. ganda no? sna makanta ko to someday.. Ü]

wow.. it’s bin a while since i last updated my blog..

nothin’ of importance have happend lately..

so far.. life’s been better..

i’m so deprsd again.. i failed my second math exam.. well, that’s life.. we can’t really predict the outcome of exams, better luck next term for me.. i’m so sad, i nearly cried because i got the lowest score..

waaaa.. i did’nt get the two problems in physics! each problem is worth 25pts, i managed to get only one correctly.. how sad.. eniwey, we joined the rizal quiz bee, and we managed to get to the final round next week.. i hope we’ll win..

midterms upcoming this week, gudluck to mE!

hay nako.. ang hirap talga ng drawing! biruin mo, four hours ako nagdodrawing ng house, tpos ang grade ko lang, 3.0! waaaaaaaaa.. pinaghirapan ko pa nman un.. naupod na nga ung HB ko kakashade ng puno at nung mismong house eh! huhu..

SALAMAT sa Stained Glass! hehe.. dahil don, nawalan kami ng quiz sa math! sa sobrang ganda, nkalimutan gumwa ng quiz ng prof nmin, yahoo! super hirap pa nmn gumwa un! buti na lang wla!

haay.. uwi na ulit ako bukas, wlang pasok sa friday eh.. nkakamiss talga ang bahay.. sna matapos na ang skul.. hehe..